Confused and disheartened, tears trickled down my face, dampening the sheets, as I lay half awake in my bed. ”What is the point of my being,” I asked, “if all that I do comes to naught? Who am I and what is my worth?” I shouted to nobody there. “Why are you so hard on…
The idea of predestination has always bothered me, and yet, as I experience Life, it seems that we are not all created equal. Some appear to have been given special qualities for successful living, while others lack the ability to cope with Life’s obstacles. We all experience trauma, some more than others, and trauma leaves…
Most of us, I am sure, can remember singing OH BE CAREFUL LITTLE ONES WHAT YOU DO as a child. Perhaps it was Sunday school or maybe Kindergarten that it was introduced to you, and if you are like me, you can still do most of the actions. I didn’t know it then, but this…
In a recent post on Next Door, I referred to people, who found fault with my post, as “ignorant”… which of course set off a barrage of responses, both favorable and disapproving of my position. I do not wish to make enemies of my neighbors and in my defense would like to share with you…
Having lost three good friends in the past couple of months, all of them much younger and appearing in far better physical condition than I, it has occurred to me that each day I live, each word I speak, and each writing I post, may be my last… and for that reason I would like…
Lovable is not a word one would use to describe Chhang … and he was well aware of that. At one time, before the sores started, his looks were a little more tolerable but he never did gain weight in his lifetime, and having AIDS was something he could not hide from others. Too weak…
I came across this photo of Leroy the other day and realized I still had tears left in me that I haven’t cried for him and for many others. Leroy took my place on point some years ago. He was fairly new to the field and the Captain wanted him to get some experience. That…
As a writer, I enjoy creating characters for my fictional stories. Each character develops its own personality as I type it into existence. Although they may only be a name to me in the beginning, by the end of the story, they have become an intricate part of the completed work. By creating them, I…
In 1984, U.S. Congressman Henry B. Gonzales awarded me the Purple Heart in San Antonio, Texas. I was not given it in 1968 after I was wounded because Operation Mallard Duck was a suicide mission, and I was not supposed to be rescued. I was the last survivor off the field, and although the medivac…
The Venerable Duch Tel with Wayne Dale Matthysse October 2024 We were both renegades of sorts… non-conformists to different belief systems that at the time were being challenged by the HIV and AIDS epidemic that was taking the lives of so many Khmer citizens, back in the early 2000s. Duch Tel was a subordinate Buddhist…
Sorry for the silence these past couple of months but decisions at my age are not easy to make. I have missed Cambodia very much but because of my health was not sure that I could return, especially with the changes that have occurred in the Wat Opot Community. My health has improved and I…
Lovable is not a word one would use to describe Chhang … and he was well aware of that. At one time, before the sores started, his looks were a little more tolerable but he never did gain weight in his lifetime, and having AIDS was something he could not hide from others. Too weak…
I haven’t thought about self-fulfilling prophesies for some time now, even though I have had my suspicions that many of the major experiences in my Life could have come about because I thought about them beforehand. A good example of this would be my Vietnam experience. Before I enlisted in the Navy back in 1966,…
I have a feeling, That in the end of time as we now know it, When all things are revealed in their completeness, We will discover, That the only differences between us, Were… like the spectrum of light, That radiates from a perfectly cut diamond, The subtle variations in how each of us manifested, The…
To search for Truth beyond Oneself, Will only cause despair. No book contains the answers, No guide can lead you there. Created in His Image, Our hearts contain the Key. Learn to Love Yourself, And from doubt, you will be freed. I have had conversations with friends who are still stuck in Christianity. They are…
